More Pics of Siena

This was a few days ago with her eyes open. I couldnt use the flash because it caused her to close her eyes.

Yesterday when she was so wide awake. She is just so beautiful.

Daddy with Princess Number 2.

Our little princess is getting so strong. I am so excited because she is doing so fantastic. She is off of everything now other than her feeding tube. She still needs to learn how to eat and breath at the same time. Which is very difficult for her. She has 1-2 bottles a day and when I am there giving her a bottle I am scared to death the whole time. Yesterday at one point her oxygen dropped from 100% to 69% and her heart rate dropped below 80 while she was having a bottle. I was shouting in my quietest voice to Lee get the Nurse Get the Nurse. She was so Blue. But it is just because she forgets to breath. It is so scary. I dont want to bring her home until she can conquer this hurdle 100% because it is so scary.

While we were there yesterday we got a special treat and that was that Siena was wide awake for such a long time. Until now we have seen her with her eyes open from time to time but not this wide awake and looking around at us. It makes me sad because when we were telling the nurse we hadnt seen her like that before she was like oh really she is awake like that a couple times a day. I felt like crying because I felt like I am missing out on things my baby is doing. The other day the nurse was telling me how her and Siena had a lovely long cuddle and again I felt like crying because I am only able to be with my baby for a maximum of 2 hours each day before the kids start to complain that they want to go home. I am grateful that these women are there to protect my princess but I think I would rather them not tell me about all the lovely things they are doing with her because it makes me so sad.

As for me.... Ive been on Antibiotics for a week tomorrow and my infection isnt hasnt really been getting much better. I rang the Dr yesterday and she said the only other antibiotics she can give me is Erithromycin, which is what I was on when I got my infection which caused them to deliver Siena in the first place. She said try it again and hopefully my body isnt to immuned to it. Kind of frustrating. Im going to finish the course of antibiotics Im on and if by the time I am finished tomorrow then I will start the other again. I still dont understand why anyone would choose to have a c-section. Here it is almost 2 weeks after giving birth and I am still in pain and unable to do much. Whereas with a normal delivery I would be pretty much back to my normal self by now.

Well here is what everyone wants most. More pictures of our princess. Its what I want most too. I could stare at these pictures of her all day every day if I could get away with it.