Im allowed to be sad from time to time... arent I?

I know in the next few weeks this last week and the weeks to come until Siena comes home will seem like a distant memory. But as I am leaving the hospital now, my baby girl in her bed rooting for me I can't help but find this so difficult. In fact nearly impossible. I want to be with her. My arms long for her. My breasts ache for her and my heart feels an emptiness which it seems nothing at the moment can fill. In my mind I keep thinking is this baby blues but it can't be. These Re the feelings one feels when a part of them isn't there. I have been through this before and as we walked out of the hospital and Spencer reached up and grabbed my hand it just made me realise this isn't forever. It just seems like it. My babies are all suchittle miracles to me. I love each of them so much and I pray that we can be together with Siena soon.