WB Day 9 Gestation 20 weeks 5 days

Hello all. It has been a couple of days since I blogged because tehre wasnt loads happening. I went to the Dr yesterday and everything is still the same. Last night my body was aching a lot and in the middle of the night I was having some labor pains. How do I feel about that? Scared!! I dont think Scared actually explains how I feel. Tonight I have a lot of pressure. I have taken some Tylenol. I really hope to get a good night sleep. I really need it. Through the night I was just praying asking Heavenly Father to make the pains stop. Next thing I knew Spencer came in and it was morning. My prayers had been amswered! I am really struggling at the moment. Everytime I see pictures of a baby or a commerical about a baby products my heart sinks and I find myself pleading with Heavenly Father to please let me have this baby and not have to go through the heart ache of it passing away. My family and a lot of friends keep saying I wish there was something we could do, to be honest with you I wish there was something I could do. I cant even protect my own child and I feel so helpless. I feel like I am doing everything I can and now I just need to trust in the Lord and know that what is supposed to happen will happen. He wont give me trials more than I can cope with.

Right so the real reason for this post is that our ward and family are doing a special fast for us on Sunday. I am so grateful for this and I am asking for those of you who can fast, who believe in the power of our Father in Heaven and who is willing to please fast with us and for us. I am ok with fasting for Heavenly Fathers will as long as he can give me the strength to deal with whatever the outcome will be. Of course I will be selfish and be begging Heavenly Father the same as I am now to please let me get to 24 weeks. I have 3 weeks to go from Sunday. I know Heavenly Father can help me and can give me the strength to overcome whatever trials come my way.

Thank you for your prayers and I hope I am not asking to much by asking for you to fast and continue praying for us. Lots of love to everyone.