ARGH!!

I havent posted anything in a few days so Im having a posting night. I feel really down today all my sisters are at home. Britt has gone home from AZ this morning and I wish I could be there. I dont know when or if we will sell our house and I am really really feeling like there is never going to be an end to living here. I have told Lee this evening that if we have to live here the rest of our lives I dont care. But we need to do something so that I can go home and see my family at least once a year for a month at a time. I cant be doing with 3 years of not seeing them any longer. Lee's work told him today that they see him as a temporary employee because they know that we are planning on moving and that unless he decides that he is willing to stay in England then they cant give him any kind of Job promotion. They said to him to think about it and let them know. So now he is going to go in on Monday and say that no matter what we have to sell our house to get out of Wigan but that we would be willing to stay in England if we had enough money for me to go home at least one a year. He would only need a £2K pay rise to pay for me to go home. Or maybe his work could just pay for me and the kids to go home once a year. We could go for like the 6 weeks of Summer holidays. I dont know. I wouldnt mind staying for a couple more years especially with the current economy in the states. Who knows maybe in 3 years or so we could go back there. All I know is one thing is sure. I cant cope with not seeing family for 3 more years. I honestly would go into a great depression. I need to continue to pray that the lords will is done and not the will of Lee or I. xx