Siena Blessing

On the 10th of October we had Siena blessed. It was such a special day for us. I cried most of church as the realisation of what we were doing hit. We were blessing our baby. The same baby we were told we would have to burry once she was born. See when Spencer was born at 26 weeks oddly enough I never really worried about him. I had the assurance straight away from our Father in Heaven that he would be ok. I never got that with Siena, instead I felt scared, worried, unsure how to cope. I spent 3 days after my waters broke at 19 weeks crying. I didnt leave the house, I am not sure I actually left our bedroom. And then one night while I was pleading for Heavenly Father to allow us to raise our baby It was then that I felt that the things which were about to happen were based upon my faith and doing all that my Heavenly Father requires. And those feelings were not feeling of if I did these things I would get the chance to raise Siena now but more that I would be able to raise her someday. So the fact that on this Sunday we were blessing our baby was very.... well I dont know emotional, spiritual, words cant describe. It was for me a day of reflection. A day of realising that God is in charge. That we are here to be tested and tried. It was also a day when I realised I have so much to be grateful for. So much to thank the Lord for every day. Right now all I know is that I am a different woman, again, then I was before I had this beautiful child. My testimony has been strengthened yet again. And our Father in Heaven has yet again taught me a very valuable lesson. One which I am grateful for. He obviously needed to strengthen not only my testimony but the testimonies of those who know us too. I pray that each of our friends and family have at some point felt the spirit through our trial. And that through the difficult time we had and the fasting and prayers which you offered on our behalf that your testimonies were strengthened too. I love you all!