Spencer 1 on Saturday

I am just sitting here thinking back on the last year and thinking about the amazing blessings we as a family have received. Last year at this time I was being told that my baby was about 1 pound 3 ounces. I was being transfered from hospital to hospital while Dr's were trying to stop my labour. Which was not wanting to be stopped. I was scared for the life of my unborn child and scared for all the complications which were going to no doubt follow the upcoming events. I can remember like it was yesterday everything that had been happening. The stress which I felt, the fear like nothing I have ever felt before and the desire to have my family as close to me as possible incase the worst did happen. I think back to that time and my life was a constant prayer. I never for one minute stopped praying that everything would turn out ok. I know that families are forever and that did give a little comfort but I must admit I am only human and I had selfish desires to be able to raise my baby. When Spencer was born at 26 weeks I felt a great peace. So many times the Dr's were unsure as to whether or not he would make it from day to day but I still felt at peace. I knew that everything would be alright though it was difficult. And ow 1 year later I have a need to thank my Father in Heaven so much for the amazing blessing and chance he has given me to raise my handsome prince. He is healthy, he is strong, he is a thriving 1 year old. And Lee and I are so blessed. Our lives have been enriched by Spencer. We have been so blessed he has taught us so much in his first year of life. He has strengthened our testimonies and has made us stronger people. He has such a strong spirit and though he is only 1 I know that he just like most children of his generation has a great mission to accomplish in this life. I just hope and pray that I can be the kind of loving parent that my Father in Heaven is to me. I wish at time I could hold both him and Kaylee forever and protect them from the evils of this world. And I can imagine that our Father in Heaven has thought that so many times. I have many sleepless nights lying in bed thinking about their futures and how I can make them better for the two of them and Im sure that our father in heaven feels the exact same about us trying to think of was he can protect us from satan and his followers. How is it possible that two little children can impact our lives so much. How is it possible that we can love so much? I just hope and pray that I can in someway teach my children the right ways and that they will be strong enough to make the decision to follow those paths themselves.